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Taking the Test
It was like waiting for my death sentence, I watched as the testing kit slowly revealed the result. Whatever the outcome, it will be the first day of my life. The emotion was intense, my heart was pumping, and I didn't even blink to see if it was done correctly. And slowly, so slowly the test came in. This is my second time to take the exam, as I was oriented more about what they are doing to me, I see the flashes inside my head.
What if I'm positive? I asked myself, is this the cross that I have to carry? Is this the karma that I am waiting for? It's not easy to be in the situation that I am in, a situation where you have to stand in between a very fine line that will dictate your next course of actions in your life. Yet as I think of the people that are living with HIV I thought to myself that they are very brave to continue life and to never lost their hope of tomorrow. They have kept their faith and I know they have a more greater perception about life compared to me.
I seem to act normal but deep inside I am filled with fear, so much fear. I felt that God have left me at that moment. But when they handed down the result to me, I realized God was there all along with me. I realized that He is there to see me in my sleepless nights, He saw me as I fight temptation and He was there to see me commit sins. Yes, I am thankful because He gave me another chance in life. A chance of redemption, a chance to live a purposeful life. A chance to serve my fellowmen. God was there to comfort me in the moment of my greatest doubts.
Comforted me God did, and never again I shall be crawling on the floor to sleep at night with a trembling heart. God is there to help me fight temptation and God will always be there to give, not only to me, but to all of us a purpose to live. Although I am still figuring out God's plans for me, it is partially clear that He wants me to reach out to the people which the community has considered as out caste. I learned one valuable lesson today, Life begets Life. Life will come to those people who value life and God will always send consolation to His people who greatly needs help.
As with my result? I am "Negative" and with this result I know God is whispering to me to go out and reach out to his people to help them live a purposeful life even if they are already living in a different lifestyle than the rest.
This is frenzy, and I wish you all a long and happy life
What if I'm positive? I asked myself, is this the cross that I have to carry? Is this the karma that I am waiting for? It's not easy to be in the situation that I am in, a situation where you have to stand in between a very fine line that will dictate your next course of actions in your life. Yet as I think of the people that are living with HIV I thought to myself that they are very brave to continue life and to never lost their hope of tomorrow. They have kept their faith and I know they have a more greater perception about life compared to me.
I seem to act normal but deep inside I am filled with fear, so much fear. I felt that God have left me at that moment. But when they handed down the result to me, I realized God was there all along with me. I realized that He is there to see me in my sleepless nights, He saw me as I fight temptation and He was there to see me commit sins. Yes, I am thankful because He gave me another chance in life. A chance of redemption, a chance to live a purposeful life. A chance to serve my fellowmen. God was there to comfort me in the moment of my greatest doubts.
Comforted me God did, and never again I shall be crawling on the floor to sleep at night with a trembling heart. God is there to help me fight temptation and God will always be there to give, not only to me, but to all of us a purpose to live. Although I am still figuring out God's plans for me, it is partially clear that He wants me to reach out to the people which the community has considered as out caste. I learned one valuable lesson today, Life begets Life. Life will come to those people who value life and God will always send consolation to His people who greatly needs help.
As with my result? I am "Negative" and with this result I know God is whispering to me to go out and reach out to his people to help them live a purposeful life even if they are already living in a different lifestyle than the rest.
This is frenzy, and I wish you all a long and happy life
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